Being on short term disability sucks. I’m being put in a position where I am given 3 months to… I don’t know, get better I guess? And if not… well, who the fuck knows.
To answer some of the ignorant questions I have been getting –
1. No, I am not enjoying my short term leave
2. No, I’m not feeling better just because I’m not at work
3. Yes, I am still in the same amount of pain everyday (Im just not forced to go places when I can barely get ready without crying)
Here’s my reality:
I am in a constant battle with my insurance company and work place. My pay is all messed up and my insurance co. flagged my short term disability application because I decided to be a good person and give work 3 weeks to find a replacement before going on leave.
Not to mention I’m on a deadline to figure out if I am going on long term disability. Oh, as of today its a a whopping 14 days left for me to decide, cool. Its due 2 months prior to the end of my short term leave, so yeah thats basically tomorrow.
I’m in in occupational therapy and aquatic therapy as often as I can get approved for. My physical therapist already admitted there is nothing left in her expertise that can help progress me. Actually, none of the therapists really know if they can help me.
I started a Gluten- free diet. Its not quite as bad as I thought but is expensive and still not fun. On week 2 but not noticing anything different, not that I expect to yet.
I’m keeping myself active while still trying to focus on “relaxing”. (ha, that’s a joke. I’m on eggshells every day trying to figure out life)
I feel like I’m doing everything I possibly could to improve my quality of life but nothing is working. Defeated left and right.
I just want my normal life back.