Fuck. Even typing that depresses me.
Yesterday my physical therapist, essentially, let me know that there isn’t much they can do to help me. Physically, I am strong. Shooting pains are not something you can desensitize or prevent. I kind of figured that was true, but hearing it sucked.
Great stat to my medical leave, right?
I’m not gonna lie, I am terrified. I was confident that this leave was going to, I don’t know, help? Now it seems that its just the beginning of another dark hole.
I am feeling constant electricity inside my body. My nerves are in fucking overdrive.
I’m going to miss work. Im going to miss my co-workers and friends so much. I have to pause my life at 28, and today that’s becoming way too real.